Lazy Luddite

I am currently procrastinating studying for tomorrow morning's calculus final and I finally realized why I dislike studying math and chemistry--I can only replicate others' discoveries and will never build upon them. I work these problems perfunctorily with no desire to advance upon them. Mathematical modeling leads to optimization of technology and economy. Chemistry advances our ability to compile inert materials into toxic substances with which to pollute the earth. I don't want to contribute to the advancement of technology. The cognitive dissonance of relying on technology in my life while resenting its existence is troubling. I have to find a compromise.